August 17th, 2009.

So last weekend was pretty hectic and I had a ton of fun. Friday night I went to go get a new Blackberry but after waiting about 45 min for someone to wait on us, I was told if I didn't wait till Sept. 2nd I wouldn't get $50 off and I'd have to pay an extra $20 for upgrading early. Needless to say I didn't get the tour just yet. September 2nd I will be down there though, FOR SUREE. After that we stopped to see Ashley at Omaha Steaks and I spent the rest of the night at home. FUN.
Saturday I went bed shopping with mom, not getting into it because I'm pretty sure I already did once before. Saturday night was probably the most fun I've had in a while.
Which A: Shows how lame I am.
B: Shows I need to get out more
and C: Shows I need to find new people to go out with.

Didn't go to sleep till about 5:15 am and woke up around 6:50 am. Felt a little sick, so I got my stuff and drove home. Showered and in bed by 7:45 am and got a gooood sleep.
Laid around all Sunday and didn't go to sandcastle.
Today was the usual. Work then came home. I Didn't go to the gym because it was hot as hell and who knows if they put the air conditioning on. That's okay though because Amanda and I are going out for a funhall walk/catch up session in about an hour.

August 16th, 2009.

August 15th, 2009.

Pretty sure I look damn cute tonight. I'm celebrating Nikki's 21st. I am so glad to be going out and just forgetting about everything. Having a good time, meeting a lot of new people and seeing some old acquaintances.





I went out with mom today to look at stuff for my room. Seems harmless, right? Yeah it turned out horrible. I need a new bed, this one is so old and uncomfortable. I'm over it. I'm almost positive I want to redo my room in light blue and dark brown though. Maybe some light green as well. Considering my walls are baby blue and my dad won't let me paint. I think it's going to look really nice when I'm done. (: I'll pretty much have my own bedroom/living room up here. I'm so glad my room is a decent size.

This is what it's going to be based off of, pretty much.


Gotta go finish getting my stuff together.

xo.

I want to start using this again. I think I'm gonna. (:

I think it's pretty self explanitory.

I am so alone, and I find myself wanting you here more than anyone else. It still amazes me because we are no where near as close as we used to be. I miss you. I had a dream about you last night. Even though I was mad at you for a bit, you managed to make everything better. I miss that. I want you to come see everything here, I just want to spend time with you. I hate feeling like this and thinking about things.

I really want something to work out, it's unfair. I don't understand anything anymore if it doesn't. I don't want to wait. I'm impatient. I feel like I deserve this.

As for most people, I think I've pushed a lot of people away because I get annoyed way too fast. I can't do anything with out letting little things get to me. At the same time I feel like people walk all over me, and I just don't want to be around them anymore. by the way, if you talk to someone I've hooked up with as more than friends, I probably won't want to be your friend anymore. s'all I'm tryna say. I think it's shady, why would you want my sloppy seconds?

I'm tired of you telling me what you think I need to do. You're not a good friend of mine, you're not my family and you don't know much about me. And you don't need to talk shit on my family. I'm pretty much over you and I try to ignore you as much as possible anymore. You're ridiculous. I don't want to hang out with your sisters friends, I don't want to be put on blind dates. I do what I want. Get the fuck out of my personal life. I don't mind being social, but I don't want your opinion/advice. If I did, I would ask you.

I can't save for shit. I need to get out of this house. I really need to work on this.


I need to stop sitting at home so much. I think too much.

PS, Your tits can't always be hanging out if you don't have any, sorry.
And trust me, I'm not jealous of you, and/or your boyfriend. Or the fact that you look like more of a man than he does. Just sayin'.

I tried to tell you everything, but I'm pretty sure you won't take it well.
I think it's time for me to grow some balls.

They're always fighting, and to my surprise I actually want to take his side. I kind of feel bad but I just want it to stop. I want her to stop being a cunt all the time.

I want to stop being so shy.


I want a lot of things.