I think it's pretty self explanitory.

I am so alone, and I find myself wanting you here more than anyone else. It still amazes me because we are no where near as close as we used to be. I miss you. I had a dream about you last night. Even though I was mad at you for a bit, you managed to make everything better. I miss that. I want you to come see everything here, I just want to spend time with you. I hate feeling like this and thinking about things.

I really want something to work out, it's unfair. I don't understand anything anymore if it doesn't. I don't want to wait. I'm impatient. I feel like I deserve this.

As for most people, I think I've pushed a lot of people away because I get annoyed way too fast. I can't do anything with out letting little things get to me. At the same time I feel like people walk all over me, and I just don't want to be around them anymore. by the way, if you talk to someone I've hooked up with as more than friends, I probably won't want to be your friend anymore. s'all I'm tryna say. I think it's shady, why would you want my sloppy seconds?

I'm tired of you telling me what you think I need to do. You're not a good friend of mine, you're not my family and you don't know much about me. And you don't need to talk shit on my family. I'm pretty much over you and I try to ignore you as much as possible anymore. You're ridiculous. I don't want to hang out with your sisters friends, I don't want to be put on blind dates. I do what I want. Get the fuck out of my personal life. I don't mind being social, but I don't want your opinion/advice. If I did, I would ask you.

I can't save for shit. I need to get out of this house. I really need to work on this.


I need to stop sitting at home so much. I think too much.

PS, Your tits can't always be hanging out if you don't have any, sorry.
And trust me, I'm not jealous of you, and/or your boyfriend. Or the fact that you look like more of a man than he does. Just sayin'.

I tried to tell you everything, but I'm pretty sure you won't take it well.
I think it's time for me to grow some balls.

They're always fighting, and to my surprise I actually want to take his side. I kind of feel bad but I just want it to stop. I want her to stop being a cunt all the time.

I want to stop being so shy.


I want a lot of things.

It's like it somehow still manages to hurt me, when I don't care anymore.
Maybe it means I still care.
I don't know.
I don't want it to mean anything.
anymore.




PS. I totally hate myself right now. LOLOLOLZ!!!111!1!!1

aggrivated, frustrated but never fucking scared.
Keep running your mouth, karma has already come back to you more than I could ever hope for. You are dead to me, I wish you would act the same. I really don't give a fuck at all. I'm sorry no one really likes you and almost everyone talks shit about you and your nothing boyfriend. I guess that's what you get when you talk shit on everyone else. You're fake. You get people to do what you want by bullying and fighting with them. I'm sorry you're jealous I have actual friends, you don't deserve them anyways.

Please, please tell me who these haters are that you speak of, because if you're referring to me, I can assure you I DO NOT want you. I mean do you really think I could be with someone with so little ambition to make a better life for themselves.

I finally got an amazing opportunity to live on my own, somewhat and finally start having my own life. I really hope that everything works out, because I really think I need this. I need a change that is going to be good for me. Not all this bullshit that has been happening.

So my 21st birthday is coming up in less than a week, and to be honest I could really care less. Isn't this this something I should be looking forward to? Nothing is going the way I planned it's making me want to just sit at home and do nothing like I have the past few Friday's this month. Fucking whatever.

I'm so tired of all the bullshit other people talk. Don't say something if you don't mean it. To be pretty blunt, I really don't care if you like me or not, just don't act like you do, then start dating someone 3 days later. I mean most of the time, I just don't want a relationship. The one time I could actually see something happening, you move to someone new that quick. It's not my loss, I ain't shedding a tear, but seriously, who does that? Oh wait, apparently every person I "talk to." Fuck it, that's why I want nothing to do with people.

I could go on so much more, but I'm running on no sleep and migraines. Goodnight.

im so over things never going the way i want them too.
oh well.
i can't wait for vacation.