Friday Funday.

We had a Halloween party at work and a decent amount of people dressed up. I didn't get pictures of most but I'll share what I did get. We decorated pumpkins during the week as well.


Storm trooper? I hate Star Wars by the way.


Ours was the Spaceship on the end of the ledge.

Dave with "The Dave's" That was what we dressed up as. Our name tags were sweet. :D

Pretty excited to go out for Halloween tomorrow night with Amanda and Amber.

xo.

Things I want Thursday.

-Money.

I think most of us would like more of that.

-More sleep/better sleep.

I'm tired of waking up a million times in the middle of the night, tossing and turning due to an uncomfortable bed and or bad dreams. Though I can't do much about the nightmares, I did get a new bed. Hopefully that will make things better.

-To go to the movies.

I used to see movies all the time with various friends. I even got $50 worth of AMC gift cards for my birthday. I think I've used it once since then. How much sense does that make. I would so go see a lot of movies that are in theatres now or are being released soon.

-To be in love.

I don't care how corny that sounds. I want something real. I'm tired of all the bullshit.

-A dog.

Either a Great Dane


Or a Beagle.

-To be happier.

I think that's pretty self explanatory.



xo.

Someday, someone’s going to walk in your life and you’re going to know why it didn’t work out with anyone else.

I just need to remember that, and the reasons why certain people aren't in my life anymore.


xo.

"I'm going to base this moment on who I'm stuck in a room with. It's what life is. It's a series of rooms and who we get stuck in those rooms with adds up to what our lives are."


"I get confused, I don't understand all of it. but I keep pushing because I hope in this thing; the universe. There's no way I'm the only bad person out there who wants something this bad. If I want it someone else out there must too."





"I'd give you my everything if you gave me yours. I know we tried this a few times, but that was before. I'm ready if you're ready, and I'm pretty sure I am. I'm waiting for you here, but I don't know how long I can."


“I’ve learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on and it will be better tomorrow. I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he or she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I’ve learned that regardless of your relationship with your family, you’ll miss them when they’re gone from your life. I’ve learned that making a living is not the same thing as making a life and I’ve learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I’ve learned that you shouldn’t go through life with a catcher’s mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I’ve learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision and I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one. I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn in life and I’ve learned that people will forget what you said and what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
-Maya Angelou

"You're probably thinking I've forgotten all about you by now, but that's far from it. I have missed you every waking day and my heart still hurts, but I'm getting better. I continue to smile and still go on without you. I know I have missed you, but I have kept it all inside of me, only for me to know. I still wonder about your doings, how you are, what you're doing, what we used to talk about, to the laugh in your voice. Just, everything. I miss it all. However, I feel that the parting of us was for the best, because everything happens for a reason. Should destiny put us into a crossing road in the future, that is when I will see you again. Until then, remember this; No matter what, even through the screaming fights, the disagreements, mistakes and the tears we've cried. Never, ever, did I give up on you. So if you ever need a helping hand, do not hesitate to ask. I may be far away, but I will always be in reach."


There's nothing you could reveal about yourself that I wouldn't want to know.
- Preston Burke

because sometimes there is no easy way out. you just have to grin & bear it. sometimes the only escape route is to go straight through the flames, just brace yourself, bite your lip. sometimes you have to sever the ties clean off.




i do understand the impulse. the impulse to put your hand out & want someone to be there at the end of your reach. to want someone to be close to. to want to kiss or touch even if it's wrong. the point is you can't control these feelings. even if they're wrong, they're there. they're always there.




all that i know is you don't just give up on people like that.This was an all or nothing deal and you gave me nothing.but i gave you everything. all of me.

I am so sore.
and tired.
and I really like this boy.
kaybye.

I have a really good feeling about this weekend, and at the same time it could turn out really bad. :x


Seriously, my phone is delaying messages and crap, it's annoying when you're trying to have a conversation with someone.


Oh well. See ya on Sunday night. Hopefully with a lot of pictures.

xo.

So on another site someone posted a video of 50 things that were important to them, and why. He also encouraged others to make the same list into a video. I want to make one soon.

Pretty much all I really did today. A bunch of nothing really. I feel so crappy, and bad. I should really think before I speak. Oh well, can't go back now.