emma, baby.

I'm starting a good deed's jar. The end of this month will roll over into next year. I haven't decided if I'm going to keep it for six months, or a year. The main purpose of this is to put me in a better mood, and help save money, sort of.
I've made a list, of things I usually do every day or so, but would be better if I did them longer, or earlier. Like going to bed at 10:30 on weeknights, instead of midnight sort of thing. If I do these things, I put a dollar in the jar. For the 10:30 thing, I'll probably put in a $1.50 because it most likely won't happen too often, as you can see. Working out more than usual at the gym, which will pay off in the long run anyways, drinking a lot more water than I normally do.
At the end of the six months and or year, Whatever money is in there, I will treat myself to a gift(most likely more tattoos, yes I plan on putting that much money in there), or put it in savings. Putting it in savings would be the smart thing to do, but we will see. I should put a dollar in there for actually putting money into my savings. LOL!

A lot of things have been going through my mind lately, I don't know, maybe because it's the end of the year, maybe because I'm not so naive anymore.

So I should be going on vacation tomorrow morning, but I'm not. I'm not sure how I feel about this really, and I think I'm probably going to be in a bad mood the rest of the week if I keep thinking about it.

I've been trying to figure out a new years resolution and the only thing I could come up with is to actually practice the saying "DGAF." I know I say I don't know, but sometimes I still do. I'm pretty sure it will pay off in the long run. I need to stop caring about the stuff I currently do, and focus on the things I need to. No more worrying about stupid shit, or caring about stupid shit. Worry about my money. And how the hell I spend all of it in two weeks, every two weeks. That's the only thing that needs to be important to me right now. I feel like things would go so much smoother if I just stopped caring, or even stopped responding.

And on an even more positive note, another new years resolution is for me to move out. I think for the sake of my own sanity and that of my family's, it needs to be this year. I know I can do it, I just actually have to.

On another totally different side note, people never change. If you're waiting for someone to change, you're wasting your time. Just saying.

Well, here goes.